I have been asked alot throughout my years why religion I believe in, or what's my take on religion, or do I believe in any god, etc.
First, I don't like labels period. Whether it's for religion, or for sexuality, for race, or anything. I don't like to be put in a box because then I feel I will forever be judged by what other people in the same "category" as me say or do.
I've also had moments when I was younger, where people would ask what religion my mother was and then assume I was the same as her. It just made me angry because I felt like it took about my own voice and thoughts.
I don't know if there is a God, or if there are Gods. I'm not looking to find He/She/It/Them either, it's not on my list of priorities.
To say I don't care sounds a little harsh, but I do not care for religion in my personal life. It wouldn't do much for my personality, or beliefs, or morals, I feel I am already a pretty set individual.
Second, religion is scary, in my opinion. Die hard people of religions, and strict rules are scary. It makes me uncomfortable, and I don't like being told what to do. Religion would be the equivalent of throwing me into jail.
Now I do not judge or discriminate against people who are religious. Basically I believe you should be able to believe in whatever you want, as long as you aren't hurting anyone, or forcing your beliefs upon anyone (especially me), it all should be dandy.
There are so many different religions in my family as well (I've always said we kind of have a mini crusades era, without the stupidity and war)... if the world could emulate my family then we could truly achieve peace,seriously.
And it kind of comes down to all the same ideas in religion... especially with ones that were rooted from a base religion.
Well here it is, I have thought long and hard of how to summarize my take on this huge topic.
I guess I believe in Love. If we all cared for our neighbors, and accepted the fact that we are all different but just lived and loved no matter what, then the world would be a great place.
So I try to live with love, and peace, and harmony.
I believe in nature, and earth, and how we need to learn how to live more eco-friendly since we do only have one planet that can foster our life.
It gets hard some days, but I believe in People. I believe we all have the potential to do something great for humanity, the planet, or anything really, even a small change. I believe people can change to live more peacefully, one day. I have hope.
I guess if you really wanted to you could tell me all my beliefs could very well set me into already formed religions. Paganism, Wicca, Buddhism, Confucianism, etc.
I already know, but I just can't do it. I can't tie myself down to a religion, to a word, to rules, when I already have so many other limitations in my life.
I hope this helps everyone understand me a little more.
I hope this ties up some loose ends of conversations if you ever asked me about my religious beliefs etc.
Peace and Love.
I am Christina.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
My List for 2010
Not in a Particular Order... just a bit... whatever... XD Happy New Year!
1. Get at least a 3.0 GPA
2. Become a CP Major/ Study Film (Transfer into Park)
3. Get a Job
4. Become more social/ meet a variety of people (specifically at Ithaca)
5a. Start a SMART Youth Branch at Ithaca College
5b. Be able to semi-run SMART Youth while I am away/ Leave it in good condition without worry
6. Renew Passport/ Get my Permit, then license/ Learn how to drive
7. Get a New Camera
8. Get a Video Camera (something I can record with)
9. Extend my Keyboard (the instrument) skills/ Make some Rocking Music!
10. Set better habits and organization skills into place
11. Stay Connected (old friends, family, etc.) / Be Available
12. Keep up with IC Chuck It/ Become a Club
13. Stay Away from Drugs
14. Figure out how to maintain a peaceful relationship with my hair/ Learn to Love it More
15. Quit the Biting Habit (;-;)
16. Start writing again
17. Do some youtube videos (?)
18. Volunteer More (find an animal shelter in Ithaca when I'm not home, gardening, stay busy doing good things for others, etc.)
*Cash my Lotto Ticket
Can't think of anything else... I may add more, you can comment to remind me of something I said I would always do....
Peace and Love.
2010
1. Get at least a 3.0 GPA
2. Become a CP Major/ Study Film (Transfer into Park)
3. Get a Job
4. Become more social/ meet a variety of people (specifically at Ithaca)
5a. Start a SMART Youth Branch at Ithaca College
5b. Be able to semi-run SMART Youth while I am away/ Leave it in good condition without worry
6. Renew Passport/ Get my Permit, then license/ Learn how to drive
7. Get a New Camera
8. Get a Video Camera (something I can record with)
9. Extend my Keyboard (the instrument) skills/ Make some Rocking Music!
10. Set better habits and organization skills into place
11. Stay Connected (old friends, family, etc.) / Be Available
12. Keep up with IC Chuck It/ Become a Club
13. Stay Away from Drugs
14. Figure out how to maintain a peaceful relationship with my hair/ Learn to Love it More
15. Quit the Biting Habit (;-;)
16. Start writing again
17. Do some youtube videos (?)
18. Volunteer More (find an animal shelter in Ithaca when I'm not home, gardening, stay busy doing good things for others, etc.)
*Cash my Lotto Ticket
Can't think of anything else... I may add more, you can comment to remind me of something I said I would always do....
Peace and Love.
2010
No Juliet
Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 11:20 PM
I'm still a kid, but mature
He can fall in love easily, but I won't
I will not tell you I love, until I know exactly what it means
He can keep living in his masquerade dream
He can be Romeo, drink poison so quickly- and think nothing will ever be right
I can not be a Juliet, I will not be a Juliet, I still have a life
And life is worth living
So Romeo can take a hike.
I'm still a kid, but mature
He can fall in love easily, but I won't
I will not tell you I love, until I know exactly what it means
He can keep living in his masquerade dream
He can be Romeo, drink poison so quickly- and think nothing will ever be right
I can not be a Juliet, I will not be a Juliet, I still have a life
And life is worth living
So Romeo can take a hike.
Fake
Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 11:19 PM
I'm sorry for all I offend, but you know if you fit into this category... it won't be the end. You still have a life and that is real, you still have a mind and decisions, you'll be able to deal.
You don't need to fit into a mosh pit of people to feel like you belong. When you wear a mask for so long, you forget who you are, and then that's what will make you all alone.
I've noticed so many people, when you look into their eyes it's nothing, maybe sadness but just something. There isn't an original thought in their mind, they follow the same people around. Same music, same hair, same poses, same dudes, same color, same eyes, there's nothing new.
"they're my friends, we just have stuff in common" I understand.
But what if they hate your favorite band? forget it, yeah they're not that good anyway. I like being this way. I'm noticed, I party, and this is so cool!
You weren't always this way, you can still break through.
Surely this part may hit everyone hard, even me.
But why be so fake? Just live, be happy.
Your eyes aren't that color, it's nice to have fun, but pretending to have something you don't well.. that's a lie, Hun.
I love ya all, but maybe you need to start being a little more comfortable in your OWN skin.
I will not lie, I am what I am, take me or leave me. I am what I am, and I can surely say, the journey of being fake ended. I will never ever be a FAKE.
I'm sorry for all I offend, but you know if you fit into this category... it won't be the end. You still have a life and that is real, you still have a mind and decisions, you'll be able to deal.
You don't need to fit into a mosh pit of people to feel like you belong. When you wear a mask for so long, you forget who you are, and then that's what will make you all alone.
I've noticed so many people, when you look into their eyes it's nothing, maybe sadness but just something. There isn't an original thought in their mind, they follow the same people around. Same music, same hair, same poses, same dudes, same color, same eyes, there's nothing new.
"they're my friends, we just have stuff in common" I understand.
But what if they hate your favorite band? forget it, yeah they're not that good anyway. I like being this way. I'm noticed, I party, and this is so cool!
You weren't always this way, you can still break through.
Surely this part may hit everyone hard, even me.
But why be so fake? Just live, be happy.
Your eyes aren't that color, it's nice to have fun, but pretending to have something you don't well.. that's a lie, Hun.
I love ya all, but maybe you need to start being a little more comfortable in your OWN skin.
I will not lie, I am what I am, take me or leave me. I am what I am, and I can surely say, the journey of being fake ended. I will never ever be a FAKE.
Love In Pain
Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 11:10 PM
Have you ever heard someone you loved in Pain?
Not Physical
emotional, mental Pain
Have you ever hear their sobs fill the whole house
Making your ears shake
Like an earth quake, making you fall to your knees and run away at the same time
Making your eyes lose sight
I have and I never want to hear it again
To see the pain, feel the pain, hear the pain, and hold their tear filled body and trying to stay strong, saying it'll be alright, saying it's alright, just keep saying... it's alright
The Look, The Feel, Of A Loved Ones Pain
It puts us to shame when we think of them as super heroes
It takes a bad moment to bring us back to reality, crash back into our bodies and see, that we're all just human
we're all susceptible to all this pain
All this hurt
All this breaking down inside, stab me now, swallow me up, take me away, let me fly away moments
I never Felt anything like this reality until I saw the way she cried.
Have you ever heard someone you loved in Pain?
Not Physical
emotional, mental Pain
Have you ever hear their sobs fill the whole house
Making your ears shake
Like an earth quake, making you fall to your knees and run away at the same time
Making your eyes lose sight
I have and I never want to hear it again
To see the pain, feel the pain, hear the pain, and hold their tear filled body and trying to stay strong, saying it'll be alright, saying it's alright, just keep saying... it's alright
The Look, The Feel, Of A Loved Ones Pain
It puts us to shame when we think of them as super heroes
It takes a bad moment to bring us back to reality, crash back into our bodies and see, that we're all just human
we're all susceptible to all this pain
All this hurt
All this breaking down inside, stab me now, swallow me up, take me away, let me fly away moments
I never Felt anything like this reality until I saw the way she cried.
