So I've been trying to figure out what I should direct this blog towards.
What do people care about, what will make people read this, and how will it change their lives for the better.
I'm still not too sure, but I think I need to do one of those structural challenges, like in Julie and Julia. :)
But... Not Really.
Maybe just put people into my life, I think my living environment and mind is kind of interesting...
But... How can I make people actually learn from my living experiences?
I guess I kind of want something a little disorderly, but something inside me wants it to have a focus.
But I don't want limitations, since I have enough of those with living.
It'll go where it goes then?
-Maybe some movie reviews, music reviews, book reviews, reviews in general.
-interviews, life experiences, disclosure (?)
-blogging about Vienna (if this actually happens...)
-Why is it called Pure Mutt? Maybe I should set that up a bit more... unless it's just me and identity...
-Identity as a theme? hmmm
-Engaging blogs...? like video blogs but not...? (lead for Vlog channel? hmmm)
Well... Just had to set that up so I don't forget, and make sure to keep it updated.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Paths of Life
The Uncertainty about Which Path to Take is Scaring Me.
I'm Questioning, Who am I Living For?
Things have been getting complex, and complicated.
There's no right or wrong anymore, there's just a wait and see.
While I am a patient person, I still don't know what I need to do, or what way I should go for the different wait and see situations.
I don't know what consequences will happen if I continue, or even start on one path,
and I don't know if sacrificing my own happiness just for a certain path is the right decision.
Right and Wrong has always been easy.
At a time where Right and Wrong doesn't exist,
just new, and unknown...
I'm unclear on how to handle this out of control situation.
I have no way to see, or assess, or weigh the pros and cons.
I need someone to show me the future for both paths, and then I can determine which is, again,
Right or Wrong.
Things are changing quickly, Right before my eyes.
There's nothing Wrong with that.
But I need to take the time to adapt. I can adapt, I'm good at that too.
Adapting, Right and Wrong.
Non one filled me in, and I feel like things are happening around me as if I missed something;
as if I did something Wrong.
I just don't know anymore, and I like knowing.
I need to know what I should do,
What will benefit me, what will keep me happy, what do I have to do, where should I go,
who am I living for, what am I living for, is all the fuss worth the outcome?
This isn't a suicide note, I Want To Live.
I just need some communication, and clarification.
Someone give me Clarity.
What is my direction.
Give me community, as I grapple with the basic question here:
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
(Only time will show...)
I'm Questioning, Who am I Living For?
Things have been getting complex, and complicated.
There's no right or wrong anymore, there's just a wait and see.
While I am a patient person, I still don't know what I need to do, or what way I should go for the different wait and see situations.
I don't know what consequences will happen if I continue, or even start on one path,
and I don't know if sacrificing my own happiness just for a certain path is the right decision.
Right and Wrong has always been easy.
At a time where Right and Wrong doesn't exist,
just new, and unknown...
I'm unclear on how to handle this out of control situation.
I have no way to see, or assess, or weigh the pros and cons.
I need someone to show me the future for both paths, and then I can determine which is, again,
Right or Wrong.
Things are changing quickly, Right before my eyes.
There's nothing Wrong with that.
But I need to take the time to adapt. I can adapt, I'm good at that too.
Adapting, Right and Wrong.
Non one filled me in, and I feel like things are happening around me as if I missed something;
as if I did something Wrong.
I just don't know anymore, and I like knowing.
I need to know what I should do,
What will benefit me, what will keep me happy, what do I have to do, where should I go,
who am I living for, what am I living for, is all the fuss worth the outcome?
This isn't a suicide note, I Want To Live.
I just need some communication, and clarification.
Someone give me Clarity.
What is my direction.
Give me community, as I grapple with the basic question here:
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
(Only time will show...)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Reconnecting
Hey!
So I kind of didn't keep up with this blogging stuff...
But I plan on getting into it in order to keep my own mind and stuff organized.
I've been writing by hand more often... (along with cooking, baking, reading, watching movies, and... stuff)
I know no one really reads this (XD)
But I hope that I can change that by intriguing people to actually get inside my head if they follow this blog. (Or atleast learn something new each day...)
Facebook is way too public... and with the lack of people who know of this personal page, I can post up more "intellectual" or "random" or "creepy" thoughts...
Whatever comes to mind I guess.
Another goal to my list. :)
So I kind of didn't keep up with this blogging stuff...
But I plan on getting into it in order to keep my own mind and stuff organized.
I've been writing by hand more often... (along with cooking, baking, reading, watching movies, and... stuff)
I know no one really reads this (XD)
But I hope that I can change that by intriguing people to actually get inside my head if they follow this blog. (Or atleast learn something new each day...)
Facebook is way too public... and with the lack of people who know of this personal page, I can post up more "intellectual" or "random" or "creepy" thoughts...
Whatever comes to mind I guess.
Another goal to my list. :)
Mixed is Beautiful
Okay everyone is beautiful, unless you have an ugly soul.
But I believe the world is just going to become super mixed in order to progress forward, and finally get over stupidity.
I mean come on now... everyone's awesome but... Mixed People... WOW! XD
I have that Mixed Pride, Yo.
Here are some people who prove my point.
*My Mom (Duh), and the Wonderful James Family
1. Alexis Bledel
2. Cameron Diaz
3. Rosario Dawson
4. Soledad O'Brien
5. Fefe Dobson
6. Mariah Carey
1. Barack Obama
2. Benjamin Bratt
3. Vin Diesel
4. Boris Kodjoe
5. W.E.B Dubois
6. Derek Jeter
Post up any others. :)
You know we're AWESOME!
But I believe the world is just going to become super mixed in order to progress forward, and finally get over stupidity.
I mean come on now... everyone's awesome but... Mixed People... WOW! XD
I have that Mixed Pride, Yo.
Here are some people who prove my point.
*My Mom (Duh), and the Wonderful James Family
1. Alexis Bledel
2. Cameron Diaz
3. Rosario Dawson
4. Soledad O'Brien
5. Fefe Dobson
6. Mariah Carey
1. Barack Obama
2. Benjamin Bratt
3. Vin Diesel
4. Boris Kodjoe
5. W.E.B Dubois
6. Derek Jeter
Post up any others. :)
You know we're AWESOME!
Things I Have Learned: Summer 2010
You Learn Something New Everyday.
If You Don't, You Should.
So I have finished my freshman year at Ithaca College, and have discovered new things about myself already for this Summer.
While I am a pretty open person, I will keep out some of the specific discoveries for the "right" time to be publicized.
1. Hayao Miyazaki is Amazing. Yes I knew this already... but after really watching some of his movies I was in awe at how well the shots and the story flows.
-I love you Tim Burton, But Hayao Miyazaki could probably make a pretty awesome adaption of Alice in Wonderland.
2. I'm in Love with a Place, and that Place is BROOKLYN. I Know it sounds pathetic, but seriously.
3. I really do love books and reading. I am all for getting rid of the old, but my books are the hardest things for me to let go of.
4. I miss writing, and I was a pretty funny writer when I was depressed. (as discovered from my journals... ick)
5. I love my friends and family. Seriously, I get some FUN advice from my family too. I respect friendship more than anything else at the moment. Family, Friends, Brooklyn.
6. I'm way to independent... I like this, but I guess other people don't... eh whatevs.
7. I want to work in a hotel when I graduate from college, get a dream house in BK on the promenade, and just make movies for the love of living.
8. Nothing phases me much anymore. I don't like this. But I do like to be prepared for unexpected events, but I will go with the flow. I'm too chill...?
9. Lynne Ewing's Daughter of the Moon Series should be a Television Series.
10. I like hanging out with groups of people, rather than being alone or one-on-one. Sometimes one-on-one is okay...
11. I love cooking. Baking is a Science, Cooking is an Art. (TV is a Science, Film is an Art)
see the correlation? :)
12. When I'm bad... I feel alive, and fun, and... a little guilty.
13. I miss my girls from NYC alot... I love seeing you guys.
14. I've usually had more girl friends than guy friends... but I think I would be alot more sane if I hung out with more guys.
15. I am very comfortable in my own skin, but I hate it when people talk about my body, or their body. Unless they are talking about positives and loving themselves.
16. Mixed Berry Sorbet (Raspberries, Blueberries, Maison Berries -wtf ) before frozen looks like BLOOD! After frozen looks like coagulated blood/ Spleen! XD But YUMMY! (Made it with Mami!)
17. When trying to figure out a place to walk to, don't ask a man, specifically AMP. He will confuse 8th STREET with 8th AVENUE, and subject himself to being checked out in the gay village.
18. "No Strings" is a wonderful thing.
19. Giraffes are Tall, or that storage place was lying to me, and made me trip for nothing.
20. Not all Brooklyn Pizza is good... ;-;
21. People don't like me... and that makes me sad... but I guess we all have our faults
22. I'm scared of telling my mom I hang out with boys... >.>
23. If money weren't an issue, life would be better. Capitalism sucks...
24. Friendship is wonderful. Friendship movies are wonderful. Friendship books are wonderful.
25. I'd really like to go out late at night and roam the streets with laughs and living and love.
26. My goals are really big and all meant for far into the future.
27. It pays to be good by day, but at night- the villains have fun.
28. I can be cowardly, and selfish sometimes.
29. NYC is magical... it inspires me... especially when I've been away for a long time, but the best thing is Brooklyn.
30. I love getting lost and finding my way. Life is an Adventure.
More to come once I formulate my thoughts...
Hopefully I will have one to count for each day of Summer by the time I have to get back to school...
If You Don't, You Should.
So I have finished my freshman year at Ithaca College, and have discovered new things about myself already for this Summer.
While I am a pretty open person, I will keep out some of the specific discoveries for the "right" time to be publicized.
1. Hayao Miyazaki is Amazing. Yes I knew this already... but after really watching some of his movies I was in awe at how well the shots and the story flows.
-I love you Tim Burton, But Hayao Miyazaki could probably make a pretty awesome adaption of Alice in Wonderland.
2. I'm in Love with a Place, and that Place is BROOKLYN. I Know it sounds pathetic, but seriously.
3. I really do love books and reading. I am all for getting rid of the old, but my books are the hardest things for me to let go of.
4. I miss writing, and I was a pretty funny writer when I was depressed. (as discovered from my journals... ick)
5. I love my friends and family. Seriously, I get some FUN advice from my family too. I respect friendship more than anything else at the moment. Family, Friends, Brooklyn.
6. I'm way to independent... I like this, but I guess other people don't... eh whatevs.
7. I want to work in a hotel when I graduate from college, get a dream house in BK on the promenade, and just make movies for the love of living.
8. Nothing phases me much anymore. I don't like this. But I do like to be prepared for unexpected events, but I will go with the flow. I'm too chill...?
9. Lynne Ewing's Daughter of the Moon Series should be a Television Series.
10. I like hanging out with groups of people, rather than being alone or one-on-one. Sometimes one-on-one is okay...
11. I love cooking. Baking is a Science, Cooking is an Art. (TV is a Science, Film is an Art)
see the correlation? :)
12. When I'm bad... I feel alive, and fun, and... a little guilty.
13. I miss my girls from NYC alot... I love seeing you guys.
14. I've usually had more girl friends than guy friends... but I think I would be alot more sane if I hung out with more guys.
15. I am very comfortable in my own skin, but I hate it when people talk about my body, or their body. Unless they are talking about positives and loving themselves.
16. Mixed Berry Sorbet (Raspberries, Blueberries, Maison Berries -wtf ) before frozen looks like BLOOD! After frozen looks like coagulated blood/ Spleen! XD But YUMMY! (Made it with Mami!)
17. When trying to figure out a place to walk to, don't ask a man, specifically AMP. He will confuse 8th STREET with 8th AVENUE, and subject himself to being checked out in the gay village.
18. "No Strings" is a wonderful thing.
19. Giraffes are Tall, or that storage place was lying to me, and made me trip for nothing.
20. Not all Brooklyn Pizza is good... ;-;
21. People don't like me... and that makes me sad... but I guess we all have our faults
22. I'm scared of telling my mom I hang out with boys... >.>
23. If money weren't an issue, life would be better. Capitalism sucks...
24. Friendship is wonderful. Friendship movies are wonderful. Friendship books are wonderful.
25. I'd really like to go out late at night and roam the streets with laughs and living and love.
26. My goals are really big and all meant for far into the future.
27. It pays to be good by day, but at night- the villains have fun.
28. I can be cowardly, and selfish sometimes.
29. NYC is magical... it inspires me... especially when I've been away for a long time, but the best thing is Brooklyn.
30. I love getting lost and finding my way. Life is an Adventure.
More to come once I formulate my thoughts...
Hopefully I will have one to count for each day of Summer by the time I have to get back to school...
Summer 2010 Plans
1. See My Peoples
2. See My Family
3. Chill in the Great BK
4. Organize My Life (a bit)
5. Read! (^-^)
6. Learn to Drive
7. Get a Job (-_-)
8. Raise Some Money to Better Fund My Trip to Austria for The International World AIDS Conference
9. Practice with Final Cut/ Make some Movies!
10. Live. Laugh. Love. AND CHILLLLL!
:D!!!!
2. See My Family
3. Chill in the Great BK
4. Organize My Life (a bit)
5. Read! (^-^)
6. Learn to Drive
7. Get a Job (-_-)
8. Raise Some Money to Better Fund My Trip to Austria for The International World AIDS Conference
9. Practice with Final Cut/ Make some Movies!
10. Live. Laugh. Love. AND CHILLLLL!
:D!!!!
